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This memorial website was created in the memory of our son, Caden Shea who passed away was too soon on April 29, 2005, at the hands of Ronald Stacy.

Cadens Family-

His Mother- Heather Murphy (Step-father David Murphy)

His Father- Michael Shea

2 Brothers- Jonathan Spencer and Landen Murphy

2 Sisters- Amelia Shea (deseased) and Grace Muphy

 

Caden was born on July 12th 2004, he was 6 weeks early. He fought to be here, he was almost born 3 months early my labor was stopped and I went on till June and when I went in to labor again and again it was stopped. When he was born he came out so fine and healthy, and screaming up a storm. From the moment they put him in my arms, he stopped crying and looked up at me and it was right then I knew he had a special place in this world. Little did I know I would only get 9 months of his precious life.

Caden at 3 weeks had a very large head. He had some tests done and from 3 weeks till just before he died, we thought he had a brain disease called LUKRODYSTPHORY, basically there was 15 versions of this disease and he possible had the fatal versions of it. So from the time I heard this I knew my time was going to be short he could die at any moment, at anytime I thought I was going to lose my son. For 6 months I and my family lived in fear that we were going to have to know the pain of losing him. During all of this I found out I was pregnant again with a little girl, and she passed away on January 18th 2005, she was born at 18 weeks gestation. She had a disease called Anencephaly, and basically that is where the brain and the skull do not form above the brain stem. In most cases the child dies in pregnancy and is born still born or dies shortly after birth. Well a week before he died I was told by his doctors that Caden was as healthy as can be there was no sign of the disease and he was just a little slow. So I finally started let my guard down to celebrate the life of my son Caden and his older brother Jonathan.

The man who killed Caden was my first love, my first kiss, my first everything and we finally met at a time in our lives where we could be together. On April 27th 2005 I left our home, the apt Caden and I shared with Ronnie. I left Caden in his care, I had done it several times before and there had never been a problem. Caden loved him. He was like the father Caden did not have, my husband and I was separated by then and was planning on a divorce. He took me and Caden in to his home and treated Caden like he was his own. Then one day I left to get food and decided to get my hair done. THAT turned in the worst day of my life, while I was laughing and having a great time getting my hair done, my son was being thrown around and murdered, just 3 miles from where I was. I came back from my errands to find the police there. His mother and him and a police officer standing in the door way, and nowhere in sight was my son. I was told he was fine and at the hospital. So I was rushed there and when I got there, I could not breathe. The site I saw was so horrible that my heart just jumped out of my chest and it was like someone was stomping all over it on the ground. I saw my baby boy laying on the hospital bed with a neck brace and a tube down his throat. He was on life support, he had died there at his house I later found out. They put him on life support because they had found the faintest pulse, and thought they could save my boy. My son had been dead for almost 25 mintues before the police and 911 every got to the apartment. He had thrown him either on the floor or smashed him up against a wall, he tried to pop his back and banged his head on the ground, Fractureing his skull and a few ribs. When I seen my son I died, my life as I knew it was never going to be the same. They then care flighted him to Cincinnati Children’s Hospital where they could do more tests and provide better care for him. When I got to the hospital, the doctors and nurses kept giving me hope, but all along they knew he wasn’t going to pull through. The next day my ex husband comes in from CT with his family and the doctors ran a test on him to see how his brain functions was doing. He failed that one, he was unresponsive. I still had hope though, that my son was going to open his eyes and cry and I would be able to go home in a little while with him. The next day the second test came and he failed that one also. On the 29th of April they officially pronounced him dead.

My husband and I decided that we was going to donate Caden’s organs, then came the time for the organ people to take over. They could not place the all of his organs cause of the damage that was caused to his body, but this liver and his intestines were donated to two little girls, one right there in the hospital with us, and the rest went to medical research. On 30th April, was the last time I seen my son breathing, I knew that this was going to be hard just not how hard. They came for him at 6 am and by 10, it was done and I could see him one last time. I dressed him in his suit he was going to be buried in. I brushed his hair. When I picked my son up and he was so cold, so limp, so…. gone. I tried so hard to see if this was just a nightmare. I kept asking him to wake up feeling his chest to see if this was real... that this was just a mistake and he was going to wake up. After awhile I knew my son was just an empty shell, that everything was gone. I held him one last time, kissed him good byeand walked away. We laid him to rest on May 6th 2005. He is surrounded my family and loved ones there.

January, 2005 Ronnie’s trail began. I was not able to be in the court room due to the fact that I was testifying against him, but my mother and step-father, and ex-husband and his family was there and heard a lot more than I did. His trial lasted a week and 3 days and on February 3rd, 2005 He was found guilty of 2nd degree murder and was sentenced to 15 years to life with a $15,000 fine and is eligible for parole in the year 2020. It is not nearly enough time and can not replace my son, or make it better. But justice was served and I believe he will have what’s coming to him when he meets his maker.

A year later to that day, the day he was convicted, my current husband and I gave birth to a little girl, we named her Grace.

Caden’s Memory will never die nor will he ever be forgotten. With every breathe I take and with every passing day I get closer to the day that I will see and hold my son again. Although I have had another baby and my children grow up and I love every minute of it, I can not wait till the day I see him again. Caden has shown me that there is more to life than what meets the eye, helped me become a better mother, and helped open a center in the new Atrium Medical Center in Middletown, Ohio, the Child Advocacy Center, The Center provides forensic interviews and support for children who are victims of abuse.

 

UNKNOWN

I heard your voice in the wind today
and I turned to see your face;
The warmth of the wind caressed me
as I stood silently in place.

I felt your touch in the sun today
as its warmth filled the sky;
I closed my eyes for your embrace
and my spirit soared high.

I saw your eyes in the window pane
as I watched the falling rain;
It seemed as each raindrop fell
it quietly said your name.

I held you close in my heart today
it made me feel complete;
You may have died...but you are not gone
you will always be a part of me.

As long as the sun shines...
the wind blows...
the rain falls...
You will live on inside of me forever
for that is all my heart knows.

 

Do You Remember Me

I can't believe after all this time,I can't get over you,
I guess a love like ours is one of a kind,a love that is true.
It's been 3 years sense you left me to go to God & heavens immensity,
Do you still remember me?

It's like a bad dream that plays over & over in my head,
Of things I wish I'd done or words I would of said.
There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you,
Even after all this time,what am I going to do?

Maybe this is the way mommy's are suppose to feel,
Perhaps our wounds are never intended to heal.
If I could ask but one question why,
How is it God could need you more than I?

In my dreams
Natalie Brown



V1
Even though we said goodbye quite some time ago
There's a strand of love in my heart
That just can't let you go
It seems that even when I go to sleep
Images of you my mind still keeps

Chorus:
And I still see you in my dreams
No matter how I try it seems
That a deep part of me just can't forget
That a big part of me still has regrets
And I can't seem to let all the love I had for you go
Yes, I still see you in my dreams

V2
Sometimes I wake with your face in my mind
Somehow I thought that I'd left those memories behind
It seems that you have left my heart frustrated
With vivid memories your smile

Chorus:
And I still see you in my dreams
No matter how I try it seems
That a deep part of me just can't forget
That a big part of me still has regrets
And I can't seem to let all the love I had for you go
Yes, I still see you in my dreams


Help Me

I was helpless

Mom was crying

Dad was sick and mad

Grandma new I was dying.

How could someone hurt me?

Why did they do it?

Did I do something to them?

Wasn't it just a baby fit?

Will I ever again smell the scent of Grandma's
flowers?

Or stare at the ceiling fan for hours?

Doctors say no...

Mommy begs "Please?"

Help me doctor! What is happening to me?

My lips are cracked and dry now

My Grandma just whispers "how..."

How could this happen to me?

Mommy holds me gently

an I'm soothed by her sweet touch

they unhook all my cords

all my medicine and such

my eyes shut tight

Mommy whispers "Goodnight"

Life fades away

Remember there is nothing harder to say,

Than Goodbye...




Silenced Cries

"Please" don't shake me anymore,
"My head hurts terribly and my neck is so sore",
"I'm losing my sight, and can no longer think",
"What did I do to break your love link"?

"Yes I was crying and couldn't seem to stop",
"I just needed changing with the diapers you bought",
"That's all that I wanted to help me stop crying",
"God...I feel like I'm dying"!

"My wee body is weak now, I can't breath anymore",
"Why did you do this...my brain you have torn",
"If only you would have talked to someone",
"Or taken a break till my crying was done".

"A soft warm blanket in a dark quiet room",
"Would have stopped me from crying...it would have
been soon",
"You could have cradled me to make me feel loved",
"But now I hear God...calling my name from above".

"I can't think of words to tell you goodbye",
"Except...you will no longer hear my cries",
"You have taken my life before it begun",
"You will no longer hold me...there will be no more
sun".


Letter to Mom

by Joy Curnutt

Mom, please don't feel guilty
It was just my time to go.
I see you are still feeling sad,
And the tears just seem to flow.
We all come to earth for our lifetime,
And for some it's not many years
I don't want you to keep crying
You are shedding so many tears.
I haven't really left you
Even though it may seem so.
I have just gone to my heavenly home,
And I'm closer to you than you know.
Just believe that when you say my name
I'm standing next to you,
I know you long to see me,
But there's nothing I can do.
But I'll still send you messages
And hope you understand,
That when your time comes to "cross over,"
I'll be there to take your hand.



We do not need a special day
To bring you to our minds.
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find.

Each morning when we awake,
We know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on.

Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow.
Was it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.

Our thoughts are always with you,
Your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly;
In death we love you still,

There will always be a heartache,
And often a silent tear.
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here.

If tears could make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you home again.

We hold you close within our hearts;
And there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.

Our family chain is broken now,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

 

There was a meeting up in heaven
And the angels gathered round.
God spoke, "They will soon be coming,
Let the trumpets sound."

Make way for My tiniest angels,
"God said, "For they are almost here"
Watch over them; I must go now
And help dry their mother's tears"

And so God went to His special place
To hear the mother's pray,
Tears fell from His eyes as He listened
To what they had to say.

The prayers were very different
Yet seemed to blend into one.
"You have my tiny angel, God
But my crying has just begun."

"I'm human and I'm weak,
God and I don't know what to do;
I need Your love and strength,
And Your help to get me through."

"Please allow me one more thing
Before I say "Amen" and go,
I need to speak to my babies now,
So my love they will always know."

God gathered the tiniest angels,
In His arms so they could hear.
Their earthly mothers speaking from their hearts,
And through their tears.

From Gods eyes as well as the angel's,
Tears began to leak,
And the trumpets sounded in Heaven,
As the mothers began to speak.

"I can't hold you… I can't see you,
Or count your fingers and toe's.
Nor wrap you in a blanket,
And kiss your little nose."

"I'll never feel your heartbeat,
As you lie against my chest.
But to question would be wrong,
For God always knows best."

"I'll never hear, "I love you"
Or "mommy read to me"
It hurts so much to want you,
Knowing you weren't meant to be."

"Although you were taken from me,
You will always feel my love.
I know God will allow that
In His kingdom up above."



"Don't be afraid my little one's,
For you are in a special place.
And don't worry about me,
God will dry the tears upon my face."

"He needed more tiny angels,
But we are never far apart.
You're not in my arms... my little ones,
But you're forever in my heart."

Then God spoke to His tiny angels
And dried each little tear.
"You're mother isn't with us now,
But soon she will be here."

"And when you reunite with her
For all of Heaven to see,
She will hold you close and love you
Throughout eternity".


You And I

You and I are connected
in a way that goes beyond romance,
beyond friendship,
beyond what we've ever had before.
It has defied time, distance,
and changes in ourselves
and in our lives.
It has defied every explanation.
Except one:
Pure and simply, we're soul mates.

I can't explain, I just feel it.
It's there in the way my spirits lift
whenever we talk.
The sound of your voice brings me home,
in a way I can't explain.
It's in the delight I feel, when we laugh
at exactly the same things.
When I'm with you,
it's like a tiny piece of the universe
shifts into place.
A place it's supposed to be,
and all is right with the world.

These things and so many more,
have made me understand
that this is a once in a lifetime,
forever connection.
A connection that could only exist
between you and me.
And deep in my soul,
I know that our relationship
is a rare gift.
One that brings us
extraordinary happiness
all through our lives.

I walk to remember

the steps you'll never take

I carry you in my heart

as I firmly plant my feet.

Our trek started long ago,

you were a new love that grew,

like the butterfly from the cocoon.

I would talk to you sweet babe,

about the world you would come to know.

I was eager to show you the world

that would have been your home.

The sun always shown upon us then-

How you'd have loved the sun....

blue skies without a cloud.

The autumn leaves turning-

the snow falling all around.

The flowers in the summer

would have filled your eyes with smiles

and the falling rain would have

caused you great surprise.

You would have traveled far with me-

holding me by the hand.

And I'd have shown you all I could-

more than I can imagine.

you hold my heart tightly now,

as though we're holding hands.

How far we've traveled, little one.

My life is sweeter because of you

and I'll always carry you in my heart

as I firmly plant my feet.

October 1, 2006

 



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Tributes and Condolences
Please correct the deficiencies in this Website   / MC Baker (none)
The recounting of what happened is wrong. Your son died as the result of a tragic accident, not murder. You know that now, and I wish you would fix the information you have posted. A concerned family member.
letter from caden   / Heather MUrphy (Mother)
Hello Mommy, its me Caden…
I came to watch you sleep…
I noticed you are crying….
Even in your dreams you weep…
Mommy, I know your heart is aching…
And you feel so empty inside…. ...  Continue >>
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